SOUL to SOUL

I CAN’T MOVE

 

It’s easier to pray in crisis

clearer who’s the wisest

otherwise I cling to sorted notions

even though I sing I'm just going through the motions

I listen better, when I shut up

 

bless the sky a lot of space there, in between the stars

bless the moon I see your face there

talking to my heart, pulling me together

when I come apart, reminding its weather

only weather, and that can change

 

SO MANY TIMES

I'VE BEEN STOPPED IN MY TRACKS

CEMENTED IN MY SHOES

SO MANY TIMES

I'M PUSHIN YOU BACK

AND I CAN'T MOVE

 

when the rug's pulled under

my heart it beats like thunder

that's when I see all I take for granted

and then I plead my prayer is recanted

I only want, what you want

 

SO MANY TIMES...

 

I hear what I need

from my knees

when I pray

humbly

 

SO MANY TIMES...                                                                                

 

LIFE IS SHORT

 

It hits me from behind

Out of nowhere and reminds me

this won’t last

it goes by fast

 

I forget this every time

despite it clocks unwind

Life is short

yah life is short

 

I REMEMBER IT WAY TOO LATE

THEN IT'S GONE CUZ IT WONT WAIT

LIFE IS SHORT

IT WON’T WAIT

 

I still feel like the night is young

And the morning is yet to come

If I’m lying to myself again

Don’t tell me

 

Cuz there’s hope in my heart

And if luck would play a part

I would finally accept the past

Because it all makes sense to me at last

 

I REMEMBER...

 

I forget this every time

Despite it clocks still wind

 

I REMEMBER...

 

 

THE ANSWERS

 

learning to say no
learning to breathe
I run before I walk, before I'm me

learning to decide
learning to know
I speak before I think, before I see

THE ANSWERS I ALLOW
TO SURFACE SOMEHOW
I TRUST YOU BECAUSE I TRUST ME
EVEN THOUGH I'M SCARED

I want to feel
I want to scream
let this rage flow through me so I'm free

I want to love
I want to dream
all that God intended this to be

THE ANSWERS...

in all that’s remaining
what’s left over after, over after all we've been through
I’m not complaining

it’s just late and I worry, late and I worry about you
we learned the harder way
so much that I'd do over

if I could

I’m not complaining

it’s just late and I worry, late and I worry about you

THE ANSWERS...

 

ITS A TRICK

 

turn the leaf

it is tired of layin’ there
it's my belief

that it's ready to blow away
all it needs something strong

to give a little push
it's not weak, I was wrong

it's not about to crumble

I WONT FOLLOW YOU
IT'S A TRICK JUST TO GET ME TO
I'M NOT
I'VE DONE ALL YOU WANT ME TO FOREVER
THIS HAS GOTTA STOP

underneath

lies the gravel we walk on
it hurts our feet

and the path is worn out
but there is strength below the ground

to the center
we're not alone, I have found

those who've been there

I WONT FOLLOW YOU
IT'S A TRICK JUST TO GET ME TO
I'M NOT
I'VE DONE ALL YOU WANT ME TO FOREVER
THIS HAS GOTTA STOP

 

I WONT FOLLOW YOU

IT'S A TRICK JUST TO GET ME TO

AND I'M NOT

I'M NOT

THIS HAS GOTTA STOP                                                                


ANGELS

 

I open up the curtain wide

I was looking through my fingers before

And now I, wanna hide

I guess it was a bad idea

 

Now I’m under a rock with my face in the cabinet

Nosing around for something I can drink to forget

What I remember

Yet another bad idea

 

OH I KNOW, THAT I DON’T KNOW

AT LEAST I'M SURE OF THIS, I KNOW

THAT I DON’T KNOW

AT LEAST I AM SURE OF THIS

 

I see your shoes under the table

I drop down to my knees and I cry

And get up only when I am able

Is this normal behavior

 

When you lose someone you and your heart is breaking

Asking the question, why is God taking them

I’m not used to misplacing someone I love

Is this normal behavior

 

OH I KNOW...

 

Angels have strange timing

They have a way of flying

And they walk beside me

I never know quite who they may be

 

OH I KNOW...

 

 

TELL YOU I'M FINE

 

roll away the stone

roll away

the weight is heavy on your soul

 

tears that you shed

water down

but it's wrong to forget

 

OH I LIE TO YOU

OH I LIE TO YOU

AND TELL YOU I'M FINE

 

cut a little piece out

it's no good

devouring the rest of

 

and a jealous kiss

I'm feelin' this

heaven knows I'm always sharing

 

OH I LIE...

 

oh I pray to thee longer

make my heart stronger

take away this greed

oh I pray to thee longer

make my heart stronger

teach me just what I need

 

oh I pray to thee longer

make my heart stronger

help me I don't want to leave

 

OH I LIE...

 

 


 

 

SAY IT NOW

 

I look into his eyes

And count the lines

On his face I see them

And everyone is, everyone is

Every one’s a year he can’t replace

 

I call him up on the telephone

He says hello I’ll put your mother on

Nothin' but idle words to make the conversation linger on

As we wait for her I can hear the distance in his voice

I hear it as we wait for her

 

Then he got sick

But didn’t die

We got the chance to sit at the table, kitchen table again

I listen to his stories and I remember every word

I know this is extra time, I have him in this world

I’m a lucky girl

 

SOUL TO SOUL, CHILD TO CHILD

IN THIS EARTHLY ROOM

SOUL TO SOUL, CHILD TO CHILD

YAH WE KNOW IT COULD BE SOON

 

SAY IT NOW

 

SOUL TO SOUL, CHILD TO CHILD

IN THIS EARTHLY ROOM

SOUL TO SOUL, CHILD TO CHILD

YAH WE KNOW IT COULD BE SOON

 

SAY IT NOW, SAY IT NOW...

 

 

 

HOME

 

I try to be here now

but it's harder, harder than it should be

I’m missin' out

by wishin', wishin' what it could be

I'm in the clouds, you bring me home

 

I circle back again

through my mistakes and resentment

living in my head those days

way back then

I am down, you bring me home

 

YOU BRING ME HOME

I CAN REST, I'M SAFE

HOME

TAKE A BREATH, THERE'S GRACE

 

I lay my burdens at your feet

and you pick them up

I've got the sense to know I'm beat

when I've had enough

I am found, you bring me home

 

I force myself to stay

I'm not used to this refuge

and there's so much more to face

but I got you, I got you

 

YOU BRING...

I am found

I am found

I am found

you bring me home

 

YOU BRING...

 

 

JUST NOT FAIR

 

She thought it guaranteed entrance into the kingdom

she thought it guaranteed love in trade for all she'd bring them

turns out that was wrong, turns out that was wrong

 

it always seemed easier to go along and kinda lie

it always seemed easier to figure out what you might want

turns out that was wrong

 

and its uncomfortable, feeling like I let you down

and worry about, can you handle the feelings

 

AND ITS JUST NOT FAIR

NO ITS JUST NOT FAIR

 

she tried the best she could, thinking it would all be worth it

she took all she could take, hoping that her work would flourish

turns out that was wrong, turns out that wrong

 

seems like forever since she answered questions honestly

seems like forever, so long she doesn’t know who she is

 

AND ITS JUST...

 

turns out I was wrong

always saying yes to you

no matter what the cost was, worried what you thought of

turns out I was wrong

trying to be everything

dying to take care of you, never being really true

turns out I was wrong

so afraid to lose you

what I did to keep you, went against my values

turns out I wrong

 

AND ITS JUST NOT FAIR...

 

 

DONT ­BE SAD

 

you can walk, you can run, you can choose

how you want to do this

contrary to what you may believe

you can go, you can stay, you can take this pain if you want to

it's really up to you, what you wanna do

 

DON’T BE SAD, I CHOSE IT ALL

I DON’T KNOW WHEN YOU STOPPED AND I BEGAN

IT RUNS TOGETHER

SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE

I GREW UP, BECAME RESPONSIBLE FOR

 

My life, my dreams, my heart it would seem

I want to blame you, I can’t blame you anymore

I’m not the victim here no way, I'm not stuck but­­

I wanted to make it your fault, I thought it was

woke up and found out some of it was my own

 

DON’T BE SAD...

 

you can stand, you can fall, you can choose to struggle

or do everything with ease, you can be free

you can stick around or go

you are the only one whoever really knows

when it’s time to fold or hold your ground

when most would turn around, don’t be sad

it never was your fault like we were claiming

now we can choose, don’t be sad

it never was your fault

hold your ground, when most would turn around

don’t be sad, it never was your fault like we were claiming

now we can choose, don’t be sad

it never was your fault, like we are saying

from now on, from now on

 

 

SUCKERPUNCH

 

I see it brought your house down

right down to its knees

I know every card you played

recited all those pleas

 

YOU TAKE THE LAST BIT OF BREATH IN

SHORE IT UP, HOLD STOMACH IN

FOR THE SUCKERPUNCH, SUCKERPUNCH

 

you never knew what hit you

the tornado wind

I drag you under the stairway

we watch the walls cave in

 

YOU TAKE...

 

when you've tried it all

and nothing helps come in cuz

we remember how deep the bottom feels

we've been there and know that it heals

 

so, sit down and be with us

suckerpunch, suckerpunch

so, sit down and be with us

so, sit down and be with us

 

 

RETURNING TO THE SOUL

 

I'm here

I never would have imagined

It’s weird

I don’t know how it happened

 

Its misleading I can think I know but I really don’t

I'm needing reassurance down this winding road

 

LET GO AND EMPTY OUT

OF EVERYTHING I FEAR AND DOUBT

AND WHAT CAN’T CHANGE SO

TURN IT OVER, TO GREATER POWER

I'M RETURNING, RETURNING TO THE SOUL

RETURNING TO THE SOUL

 

I break

broken to be whole

my mistake

thinking maybe I control

 

and I'm tired and worn out ‘til I'm renewed

stop playing God but I forget sometimes and I get confused

 

LET GO...

 

let go and empty out

let go and empty out

broken to be whole again

empty to be full again

returning, returning to the soul

returning to the soul

returning to the soul

returning to the soul

 SOUL to SOUL    

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